Ripening šŸ“

ā€œThis is a case in which I need more than words to find the meaning. This is a case in which I need whatever it is I think or believe to be penetrable, if only for myself.ā€

ā€”(Joan Didion,Ā The Year of Magical Thinking, 2005)

Ā© Kat Healy 2023 / Mary Clare Healy (Mum)
A 'Visitation' from Mum
KAT HEALY 

She arrives at the oddest of times

like when I chop neeps
for tea with sweet potatoes 

she hovers at the window
a reflection on the cooker

the pinch of her grin
all teeth and cheekbones

scares the hell out of me    at first

I wrestle veg into a tin 
  cook for an hour

she taught me that    I think?

Iā€™d love to ask her	but
she wonā€™t stay long

in the kitchen
  I clatter plates together

I think itā€™s the fan    scares her away
it rumbles with steam

        she shivers

a wisp of fragrance     
  could be the roasties

either way, it evaporates
the steam    then Mum.

ā€” (from 'Ripening', 2023)

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Visitations

Iā€™d wake to guttural soundsā€”restless echoes (coming from me). Iā€™d scratch at static noiseā€”ā€œFade to black, please, fade to blackā€.

I was certain, ā€œShe was here, I saw her, we were in the kitchenā€”she was just hereā€, convincing no one because no one was there.

Just me in a liminal space.

Now, I handle them better, the visitations.

She doesnā€™t age. Sheā€™s reflected lightā€”a shadow to trace in my mind's eye.


Dream Angus

ā€˜Dream Angusā€™, a traditional Scottish folk song performed by / Thilo Pfander Ā©2023

The full song will be available on Substack tomorrow, 19th September 2023.


Ripening šŸ“

This month, Iā€™m releasing a series of short extracts and reflections from my first poetry pamphlet, ā€˜Ripeningā€™, due in 2024. The pamphlet will be accompanied by original artwork and songs.

As an indie artist, Iā€™m self-publishing my pamphlet. If you havenā€™t already, please consider subscribing to support my work.

Thank you! Kat x

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